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[ January 11, 2002 | 11:38 pm | Watching: Contact ] So. Alot has happened. On New Years I went to Erin's party, which separated into two separate parties consisting of Erin and her friends and Amanda and her friends. It was interesting. Amanda's friends (who are about two years younger) spent most of the night making out, or hot tubbing, or listening to music. The rest of us crammed into Erin's room, watching movies, and eating junk food. It was good times, there were lots of people there, and for the first time ever, I knew most of them. I can't remember much else from the rest of break. I spent most of it thinking, or watching Scooby Doo videos. I've been doing alot though. Right now Mila and I aren't talking, but I think it's for the better. It's hard to explain, but I've decided to dissociate myself from her, Paul, and a half dozen others like them, the intelligentsia, as I've named them. I came to the conclusion that it wasn't healthy for me. As I put it to Mila, reading stories of Tlon is intended to give us insight into our world, but ultimately it alienates us from it. Eventually, we begin to manufacture our own reality, one that best fits what we would like the world to be. But though the world may be cold, it's colder to be isolated from it. She didn't understand what I meant, and I don't expect anyone else to understand either, but it all makes sense to me now. And I'm much happier. Things are getting done again, and it doesn't feel like someone is constantly squeezing my insides anymore. Since then Mila and I haven't talked much at all. Once, in the morning before English I walked past the landing (where mila and Paul always sit in the morning) and she approached me. She talked, but I could tell the words had been rehearsed, it was very scripted. And then she compared me to a certain character in a book recently read in English. It was at that point I knew I had made the right decision. And that's all for the past. The semester's almost over, only 9 school days left. The schedule's looking busy though: Chemistry test on Monday, Physics on Friday, and then exams begin on the 26th. And I've finally decided on what I'm going to do for university: 2 or 3 years at Western in science, and then I apply to Waterloo for their optometry program. Yup, optometry. Everyone I've talked to agrees that it's an ideal career for me, mostly because it's scientific, and I get to be my own boss, without having to deal with any panicky people. So far plans for the weekend include homework, and a bad movie marathon hosted by Steph (actually it's monty python and mel brooke's, but i think bad is a good substitute). At some point I hope to make it to the theatre and the mall. Well, that seems all for now. Oh, I'm working on a new version of the webpage, I'm learning PHP and everything. Depending on my schedule, it should be up sometime this century. [ January 15, 2002 | 11:38 pm | Nelly Furtado - Hey, Man! ] I can't wait for this semester to end. I did 4 hours of physics homework tonight and an hour of English. Yesterday was 3 hours on a chemistry lab, plus 2 on a physics, and I didnt' bother with the English. I should be studying for exams right now, but with all the homework, I can'f find any time. Strange things are happening. I've been referred to as a "car guy." That's never happened before, but I'm planning on buying a car in September, and I guess I'm slowly picking up "car guy" knowledge. Good news of the day is I got both my English and Chemsitry ISPs back, 100 on english, 98 on chemistry. Hopefully that will turn into lots of money in schollarsips next fall. It's sad. I've been doing nothing but school work all week and that's all i have to talk about :) I got an email from Janet today. She said she wanted to be just like me (because she's jealuos of my man purse). That made me feel all warm and stuff. Speaking of my man purse, why is it that every girl I talk to ends up looking through it? It's really annoying, because they go through my wallet too, and then use my chap stick. I was wondering whether or not I should settle for less. John says I should, Cynthia says I shouldn't. I think I'm going to listen to Cynthia. [ January 19, 2002 | 9:08 pm | Shakira - Whenever, Wherever ] My weekend's been quite boring so far. In fact, I haven't really done anything other than study for chemistry and watch Jeepers Creepers. It was an okay movie, nothing spectacular. It seems like it's been forever since there was a really genuinely good scary movie. I haven't watched anything that made me jump since House on Haunted Hill. I love that feeling where something unexpected happens, you jump, gasp, maybe even scream and then everybody laughs. I want that feeling again. I want a movie that can give it to me. Driving is fun--I'm getting really good at it i think. Crazy things are happening around here. Certain diabetic, developmentally disabled relatives have moved in to my house. That's not so bad in itself, but the reason they're moving in is because their meds are thorougly screwed up and they're hearing voices, paranoid of people in the backyard taking pictures, and threatening to kill my grandmother. This is day two, and things seem to be going better, but still. Suffice it to say I'm sleeping with my doors locked and a knife close to my bed. I enjoy Shakira. She's not exactly Britney, but still good. Miss Liz and Miss Esseltine have moved their lockers across the hall from mine. It's good times, I get to say hello to them everyday, which is pretty much the extent of our unusual relationship.